Living with a Anxiety Disorder

My personal thoughts and feelings:

Have you ever felt so overwhelmed you feel outside of your own body?

I have so much love within me to share but yet I don’t share it with myself. Almost like I’m not worthy of it.

Anxiety makes me feel as if I can feel my own heart racing within my body. Making it harder to listen to what’s happening around me.

I feel tired, I feel as if I just ran a marathon. Heart racing, breath taking. I feel so overwhelmed I don’t know where it’s coming from or what set me off. There is so many things happening I feel powerless.

Feeling simply sad and not understanding why. Tears falling down my cheeks for no single reason. Shaking hands, feeling scared of what could happen next.

One thing I’ve learned about my anxiety is that talking about it isn’t going to solve the feelings. No words can describe the thoughts I have set in my mind within the moments.

Where it all began:

I was diagnosed with a Anxiety Disorder this past year, it was one of those things I always knew I had but didn’t look into. Knowing I made the choice to see a doctor about it was the best thing I could have ever done. I have not only learned more about myself, but I have realized how much it has been effecting my life.

It has gotten to the point of keeping me from doing my daily activities and seeing my friends and family. I was starting to distance myself from reality. Keeping myself away from situations that set me off or caused panic attacks. It wasn’t easy explaining how I was feeling to others, so I began backing away and distancing myself more and more as time went on.

It wasn’t till my second year into College I realized others around me were feeling the same way, and I learned it was okay to feel different. Learning there was ways in improving my Anxiety. I started talking to a counselor at my school. Which in the beginning I found difficult but as time went on I found very helpful.

As I continue to move forward there is still daily struggles. As anyone else who may have Anxiety knows, it’s not something that goes away on its own. You have to work towards making yourself comfortable each and everyday.

I have found some small ways to help relieve Anxiety and I would love to share them with you…

Something to look into would be a helpful tool to always have with you. That could mean having a ball in your purse to squeeze when feeling anxious or even having a mindfulness app on your phone. There are plenty of ways out there to help relieve Anxiety.

One I highly recommend if you are someone who is active on social devices would be this app below.  I was introduced to the app in my first year of Collage. I have found it to be very helpful with calming and being a simple way to relieve my anxiousness and more. 

MindShift CBT

If you are someone who would like to know more ideas in helping relieve mental health please comment below. I would be happy to share more. 


Learning to take time for yourself

Thinking over and over again

Have you ever just sat somewhere and watched everyone around you?

We tend to always want to rush into things no matter where we are going or whats happening next. Speeding while driving or even running even to the car from the grocery store when we have nowhere special to be.

Psychology today shows that humans are always planning whats happening next no matter what they’re doing. If that be planning your day while drinking you’re first cup in the morning, or while driving to work. Our brains never stop planning and creating our next move.

The meaning of self-care

Self-care is important because it is a healthy way to calm the body and hormones. Our bodies can be feeling overwhelmed and over worked while we don’t always tend to notice it. As humans we seem to worry or stress over things we have no control over. With that being said, I have found in the past couple of years, that self-care is very much needed in my weekly routine. It not only can be used to make you feel good and well rested, but it can also be a healthy way to relax yourself when needed.

While being a student I tend to normally get stressed over school work (like most people do). So teaching myself some self-care is one of the best ways to relieve my stress. If that means taking my dog for a long walk along the beach, or even just lighting a candle and having a cup of tea with a good book.

You just have to find that balance of something you enjoy doing and something that is calming to your emotions. You want to find an activity that truly makes you feel better about yourself.

I have attached a link to a website I have found of 70 ways to relieve stress.


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Finding the time

We tend to always have excuses not to do things because we never have enough time in the day. But when it comes to taking care of yourself, you need to create time. If that means planning a meditation just before you go to sleep, or waking up extra early in the morning just to hit the gym. You’ll need to create time in order to do achieve these activities.

From me personally – My story

From my experiences I have put so much time and effort into making myself feel good and self loved. I am not telling you all these things just because I want something to write about. I am telling you these things because I know they actually do work.

I suffer from an Anxiety Disorder, creating a mindset that isn’t always flexible with how I am feeling. I sometimes find situations difficult and need to calm myself down in order to settle my mind. So I have personally tried many of these activities and know they do work. With that being said though, you need to find what suits you best. Everyone is different and handles things in their own unique way. So feel free to take as much time as you may need to figure out what makes you feel best.

Showing yourself love and care is so in creditably important I can’t tell you enough times. Please take care of yourself.

Best, Hailey.

I hope this blog has helped you find ways to show yourself self-care. If you have any questions for concerns please feel free to comment below and I will be happy to reply back to you. Thanks.

The day of prom

The day of prom is a day that many girls dream of as they get older. Plenty of time spent shopping and finding the right accessories to match the outfit, finding the right date to go with, getting your makeup done like a queen… etc.

This photo just below is me on the day of my prom. I had gotten photo’s done before the night began. I also chose to go without a date but with close girlfriends. Nobody was really seeing anyone at the time, so it was a good choice. We ended up splinting the price on a limo, while doing a mini photo shoot at a friends just before leaving for prom.

Prom is one of those days you feel like the prettiest girl in the world. Showing everyone around you how stunningly fabulous you are.

The story of the orange dress

My dress was from a family friend. I needed a dress and was having a hard time finding one that felt good and held everything in (if you know what I mean;). I had gone to a family friends for dinner and the topic happened to come up. Shortly after that I started trying on dresses, I came across this one. I laughed at first because it was so bright! Where normally I am a darker tone kind of girl when it comes to clothing. My friend suggested I try it on, and as soon as I got the zipper up I knew it was meant to be. It was beyond comfortable and just felt like my kind of dress.

I strongly believe in trying clothes on before judging them since than. You never know, something could be the ugliest on the hanger but beautiful on.

So if you’re a young girl getting ready for prom my only advise would be to just have fun with it. Prom isn’t meant to be stressful or overwhelming. Its meant to have fun and enjoy the years you’ve spent studying and growing up.

Girl talk

If you are a girl that is going into prom season and you are struggling with finding a dress or anything else, please feel welcome to comment below and I would be happy to help you out!

Enjoy prom season everyone!

Best, Hailey.